plainly, and simply, because i was never able to contribute anything of value, so why would i be worth anyone's time or effort. every time i visited, i felt like i was the autistic puppy-dog that was kept around only because it was "special". so i am gone. i won't bother anybody with my existence anymore.
it was a brief point of depression. feeling better now. and to whomever asked the police for a welfare check, thanks. it is nice to know people care, even if it was just a moment of depression.
Glad you reached out and we or people we know can go through depression at times so nothing wrong with looking for some support. Sumner